change

from what i understand, buddhists believe that we are always changing. the person we are at 10 pm is different from the person we are at 10:05 pm. there is always a possible change for the better just around the corner. though, buddhists focus on the present moment, not the one that hasn't happened yet. i do have a point....

sometimes our changes are so small we don't notice them until months or years have passed. other times, our changes are so big we don't know how to deal with them. i'm feeling changes of the second type and muddling my way through them. i mostly want to say, "thank you," to my friends and family who are listening to me and supporting me while i'm figuring things out for myself. if you're going through big changes, you are not alone. i wish you the same love and support i receive.

here's a song i like lately. i've heard it sung by doris day. i don't know who wrote it. i've substituted a couple of my own words.

when i was a little girl
i asked my mother, what will i be?
will i be happy? will i have fun?
here's what she said to me
que sera sera
whatever will be will be
the future's not ours to see
que sera sera
what will be will be

so, here's to living in the moment and taking the changes as they come!

happy birthday to me!

mine was yesterday : )

birthdays have so many connotations. if you're 9 years old, you're excited, looking forward to parties and presents. if you're 19, you're just dying to be 21. if you're 29 or 39 or 49 or 59, you might be dreading the next BIG one. that's when you start getting the consolation of, "it's better than the alternative!"

the only number i've struggled with so far was 35. i felt it was the end of my youth. i was officially a grown-up... ugh! since then i've gotten used to the idea. i've made peace with being a grown-up. it is only through growing up that i have discovered and developed (still doing so) my oh-so-important light.

so here are some new ways i like to think about birthdays:
We are all born for love. It is the principle of existence, and its only end.
...Benjamin Disraeli
We turn not older with the years but newer every day.
...Emily Dickenson
May you live all the days of your life.
...Jonathan Swift

birthdays are good days to really appreciate the moment you are experiencing. this is something i try to practice daily. to feel light in any given moment is a precious gift, and it is all i need for my birthday. wishing you many moments full of light.