grieving

While this is a season of joy, it is also one when many of us grieve for loved ones who have died. The following is about grieving for my mother, but please read through to the end to catch my positive spin...

I am mad that Mom doesn't get the chance to turn 59 or any other age over 53. I'm so jealous of families whose parents live into their 70s, 80s or 90s. Of course, she won't have to deal with aging or losing her mental faculties or quality of life.

Still, I'm selfish; I want her here with me! I want her present for weddings, births and all the smaller good things, too. She should have had more opportunities to travel, see friends, etc.

I guess I have to hold on to my belief that her spirit is always with me and that she IS present for all life's events. She probably IS still traveling and seeing friends!

I'm happy to say that 16 years after her death, I am more blessed for having her as long as I did than I am angry about my loss. She is with me every time I think of her. I am never alone because I carry her in my heart.

Much love to you and to those you carry in your heart.